Darlings, I have had a wonderful birthday and am now going to bed. Lots of kisses :)

As always this time of year i'm on my way to fusion, the most amazing plaze on earth. Daniel and I are running around in circels getting things organized in time for departure and im beat but in high spirit. :)

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Hehe, im pink. Who would have guessed?

Thank you very much Carmen, Henry and Mark for the lovely scarfs and sweet heartwarming greets.

:D

Defenetly stolen;

1] Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yes


2] How many boyfriends/girlfriend have told you they loved you? Every single one


3] Have you ever thought that you were going to marry an ex boyfriend or girlfriend? No, never


4] Are you crushing on someone? yes


5] Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? yes


6] Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Oh yes.


7] Are you happier single or in a relationship? I dont know.


8] Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? Nope.


9] Have you ever had your heart broken? Nope.


10] Have you ever broken someone's heart? Yes.


11] Talk to any of your exes? Yes.


12] If you could go back in time and change things, would you? No.


13] Think any of your exes feel the same? I have no idea.


14] Do you believe that you are a perfect boyfriend or girlfriend? LMAO! No, not really.


15] Have you dated people who were not good to you? Well, yes.


16] Have you been in an abusive relationship? No. Maybe. Define. ;)


17] Have you dated someone older than you? Yes.


18] Younger? Hehe. Yes.


19] Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? No way in HELL.


20] Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes, why not?


21] Ever been given an engagement ring? No.


22] Do you want to get married? Nope.


23] Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? Yes.


24] Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes.


25] Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? Probably, the thought of it feels bad enough make youre heart stop so..

Im bored to tears. I apparently cant handle to much rest at the time.

Today i bravely faced The Outside. Almost got the better of me and i realize im not as mentally fit as i would like to be, or thought i was. I got away with 3 dresses and lots and lots of twinkly things to put in my hair for new years eve.

Found out that my ears are still pierced when i got home, big surprice and very plesant. As i recall it they grew shut a few years back and i havent tried putting anything in them since i repeirced them on my own about a year ago when i thought id try on some earrings. Lots of blood and pain seems to have done the trick. Who knew.

Now, its time to get at it again. Friday night, here i come!

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Sunday.

Im in that weird place where i can feel time running out on me but im still not under enough pressure to be efficiant and get things done. *sigh*

My day in short:

Got up.
Did everything that needs to be done in the morning and had a lovely breakfast with Daniel. We made porridge and giggeled endlessly over the pure horror it is to eat it. Then we had our vitamines and giggled even more since they were if possible worse then the porridge.

The background story that explains why i have vitamines in my cubboard:
A late autum afternoon i was taking a stroll with Felicia. Shes as beautiful as her name is and her voice is deep and ritch. She sings wherever she walks and shes as lonely as a storm passing, lonely in her self, but independent, strong and engaging every living thing in her path as she twirls by in rageing beauty. (As you can tell i love her as much as i can love.)
From this to the actuall vitamines. (I got a bit sidetracked)
We were making dinner and when we had gathered all we needed i found myself in front av a very inspiering tube. A deep pink tube with a picture of a pink orange. A tube of vitamines with the dazzling name "multikvinna", in english, "multiwoman". That must be the most absurde productname i have ever come across plus it made me think of an old song by Zarah Leander witch in turn made me burst out in remembered song. A vitamine that makes you burst out in song before even taking it must be worth every penny so naturaly now its all mine! Unfortunately it tastes like shit and i have no idea if you become a multiwoman (whatever that is) by taking it or if you perhaps get multiwomen. I think the latter is what made Daniel drink up. (Hes an old friend of mine curretly sleeping in my livingroom.)

Then i had a bath.
Went to my lecture.
The cutest boy in class sat next to me and we became friends. We both had fruit so we had something in common. He had a banana and i had an apple, i think i'll have an easier fruit the next time. The way apples crunch when you take a bite seems to be somewhat of a disturbance to my professor. Bad childhood memories perhaps. Saga made a great comment the other day on the subject "the cutest boy in class" by the way. We were talking about who´s the cutest boy in her class (I cant tell his name, its all very hush-hush) and then she asked me who the cutest boy in my class is so i tell her. His name is Finn (Find in swedish, never occured to me before) and she looks down as if she doesent want to hurt my feelings incase i can see in her eyes what shes thinking, her little dollface has a concerned look to it and she sais: "Well *apperant pause* the fact that he has a funny name doesent mean that he looks funny" and she smiles encouraging at me.

The rest of the day i have spent making dinner and gingerbread cookies. First i made dinner for me and Saga and then i decided that i should start living a healtier life since i got a zit on my chin. (Who needs logic when there is living without it) So, i decided to make lots of healthy food to bring to school. Lintals and spinage curry, great idea. In theory it works well, irl i got carried away by spinage and now i have a ton of curry smelling spinage with a concentration of one lintal per square inch. Note "smelling" not to be confused with "tasting". In the end it all amounted to me overdoseing on gingerbread cookie dough and getting a stomacace instead of leading a healtier life. Saga who is the more mature one in the family ate an impressingly tiny crumb of the dough and frowned at my foolish behavior.(As for mature behavior, make no misstake, Saga did not eat porridge, drink icky vitamines or giggle at breakfast. She sipped her chocholate milk with dignity in a civilized fasion.)

And im in a very weird mood. If it wasent for the stress i'd diagnose myself with some kind of borderline syndrome, stay home for a week and drink my vitamines.

Tomorrow is my first exam on my new education... And i think im somewhat prepared. Right now im trying to sort out everything else to make time for everything else.

Wish me luck. ;)

Ok, who broke hotmail? I really really need it right now so i'd appriciate if whoever *quick glare in angels direction* is responsible step forward now.

:P

*still bouncing*

And after rain comes sunshine! I'm so possitive and gay (the oh-so-happy-happy-joy kind not the i'm-fondling-other-women kind, could be but not this time. Boys are much to pretty... and handy.) I'm so possitive, energetic and overall sparkling that its sickening. I scared my classmate half to death when he called me this morning just by beeing overwealmingly happy and the day has continued in this manner. Even my mum gave me a scared glare that said "is she for real or is she a crazed axmurderer.. she could be an axmurderer.. to think that i never suspected it before".

And I got things done today. It finally happened. I sat down and did what i am supposed to do. Its amazing. Saga wanted to help me so we drew houses togheter. We had so much fun. :D
(Now im not nearly done but getting started is a big step forward)

My bf however does not share my happy mode, hes a week behind me emotionaly as it seems and has been struck down by stress. This makes for interesting conversation. All is well that ends well.

All in all a good day, very good. :)

I'm procrastinating.

Laundry seems so much more useful, and fun(!), then taking care of what i have to do.

Its not sunday anymore, its late thursday and i have had some kind of mental breakdown.

The world around me seems sticky and dissolved, imageone the world within.

Its sunday, the dreariest day of them all.. And, the day before I go home.

We had a conversateion about beeing creative yesterday that got me thinking. Actually we had a lot of conversations this time 'round that together made me contemplate what I seek in a relationship. Now I just have to wait for my mind to figure out the awnser.

Nicked from Ulva:

You Are Surrealism

Dreamy and idealistic, you've created a world that is all your own. It's very likely that you've either dabbled in drugs or are naturally trippy. You are always trying to push beyond the boundaries of your culture and society. You believe that art, love, and freedom can change the world.

"Naturaly trippy" huh. LOL.

I'm in stockholm again witch is great. :)

Im a bit stressed since i have a number of assignments that needs finishing/starting so ive been running around like a headless hen in general not finding time to do anything but go to school, eat and sleep.

I must say its a very exciting progra that i have started and im feeling better and better about it. This migt actually be what i want to do with my life. :)